While I Was AWOL...

I celebrated a Birthday!

(written Oct 1st and forgotten about till today LOL)

September 17th marked not a milestone birthday, but a significant birthday nonetheless. Why? Because... this was probably the closing of "the worse" year of my life... 

With the miscarriages, and the pain and despair that came along with that...with me not speaking to one of my closest and bestest friends (my mama) on my birthday-and really the previous 6 months leading up to my birthday... with the many question marks and no "light" in the distance with the adoption... my past year had been likely THE ROUGH-ESSST year ever!!!

Now... that being said... I grew in my faith, more deeply than I ever had before. And that revelation... did not come so easily, but...it came...eventually.

I looked back at Facebook over the last year - of all things eh? I looked at my posts... and my blogs... and thought.. none of this... NONE of this, really would have happened had "this" not happened first...

On the anniversary of the day I was born, I "status'd"

I'll sing 2U Lord a hymn of love. For ur faithfulness 2 me. I'm carried in everlasting arms, you'll never let me go... thru it all. Thank u Lord for Blessing me with the hardest year of my existence to date - and also GIFTING me w/ the MOST faith strengthening, spirit filled, time of my life :)

It is ABSOLUTELY true. God has gifted me with a year of strengthening, rebuilding, renewing...and... it is unfortunate - but still true, that I wouldn't have hit this stage had the pain never been experienced.

God's words rang true based not only in HisWord but in my fellowship with my Christ centred friends. Friends that are grounded in Him, that encouraged me through His Words and teachings, that never let me forget that through it all... God loves me, and wants the best for me, and has something RIDICULOUSLY AWESOME planned for Marc and I.

It's been hard, and it's definitely been an up and down battle...