 |
| this scene from `Finding Nemo`` is one I often recall especially when I saw the pic of my own `follicles`` |
Marc and I had been trying for some time to get pregnant the old fashioned way and it didn't seem to be as easy as one would think - you know, with young high school kids having "accidents" all the time and such. At the advice of family, we went to get checked out by our family Doctors just as a ... nice to do.
Through the check up, we found that there might be "concerns" that warranted us meeting with a specialist. We were introduced to Dr. Michael at Astra Fertility, Mississauga. The process was standard...
- meet and greet, who we are, what we want, what Astra can provide, what our first steps will be...etc
- we set up blood work assessments, sperm analysis and waited for a follow up.
- I also needed to do a sonogram, standard and not fun. They found one of my tubes were blocked.
- I did a hysteroscopy, not overly exciting or comfortable.
- I had to do an endobiopsy - hated the MOST!!!
- Then in April, we got the follow up appt, and we were advised that with their findings, the only route/solution would be IVF.
- what this looked like was monitorings of my cycle (meaning almost daily bloodwork and ultrasounds)
- intake of hormones: lupron, hcg, ovadril and some other stuff that I probably choose not to remember, and we finished off by egg retrieval, fertilization and implanting on day 3. My little Nemo`s looked awesome. And I was ever so excited to the end result!!! (I just made that seem easy eh?)
my little Nemo`s... I produced 19 eggs...great number in theory! - of the 19 eggs.. they fertilized 5
- they tfr'd 2 - both of which they were concerned with because the size was less than desirable ie: it didn't plump as much as they would've liked.
- with the 3 remaining eggs, they waited to to see how they developed by day 5, and ONE egg was good enough to freeze, so that`s what they did.
MarcAnto and I after the transfer
The good thing is: I have a faith that assures me God is in control. And sometimes, I really don't know how people go through this... or any disaster really, without a relationship with God. But I guess, you don't know what you don't know right?
So the day we found out the pregnancy test came back negative, was December 16th. One day before my husband's birthday, a few days before Christmas and for me... this meant 2 days before a surprise party I had planned for my husband and less than a week before a party of 50 people at my home Christmas Eve. Not to mention... our family had no idea what was happening because.. IVF seemed and SEEMS very taboo for anyone to speak of :-(
It was a rough Christmas. My husband broke and told his mama, who was respectful enough to not share that secret, and was loving enough to be a great support.
On my side, my mother and family did not know. They're old school, and Asian/oriental, and would feel this to be quite unnatural and perhaps, messing with God's plan...
Considering I'm quite close with my Mama, this was very hard to keep; but the stress of dealing with all the questionnings... justified my reasons for not sharing this with her. Less than a hand full of my friends knew, and as hard as they tried... you will learn, there really isn't much anyone can do to make the situation less painful. And most notably... you will feel quite alone... and you will just need to work through that... as quickly as possible....
the sauga will continue....
No comments:
Post a Comment