Adoption Option

So Today…

Has to have been without a doubt, the BEST day I've had in aWHILE! 

SO last time I wrote, I had spoken with a Home Study individual by the name of Liz (referred by my SIL).  I also mentioned that same day, that enough was ENOUGH! No more sadness, no more zombie-ness… it was time to move on.

And "move," was clearly God's plan for me too!

Today… I received information overload from all sources I'd reached out to! … ALL SOURCES 

Last night, Anne referred me to a blog of a Christian family who went through a similar experience as me and Marc (http://thewilliamsfamilyblog.wordpress.com/ontario-adoption-process/). On that blog, there was a link to http://adoptioneducation.ca/ - a link to assist you with your PRIDE training. So I emailed Sofie for further information.

Also, last night, I got back on the horse, and emailed THREE different International Adoption Agencies specializing in adoption from the Philippines. And lastly, I emailed CAS again.

Today, I got an email from one of the adoption agencies, outlining process fees etc and inviting us to come and speak with them - good!

At lunch time, I got a phone call from Suzanne with CAS!!! *I could literally hear angels sings LOL.* We spoke briefly about process, next steps, why I'm interested… a good, solid conversation, we finished off with her indicating she will be mailing me my invitation to attend the (first step) info session on May 14th I believe.

As I completed the rest of my afternoon, I missed a call from a blocked line, and when I retrieved my messages, I learned it to be Noelle from Adoption Ontario, calling me back from my message (like CAS) left Apr 5th. I'm sitting here and my head is whirling from ALL of the feedback. And ALL right NOW!

I called her back during my last work break; we spoke again, about the steps I'd already taken, the goals that we have and then she invited me to another info session. So, I should have an info session with Adoption ONTARIO on April 30. While on the call with Noelle, I received an email from Sofie with Adoption Education, indicating the below:

Hi Crystal,

What a great blog. It’s great that it was helpful for you.It is exciting that you are looking at adoption to complete your family. I truly believe that things are meant to be, and as an adoptive parent myself, I know that there was a plan that I could not have a child by birth (as I absolutely adore my son who joined our family throughadoption).In terms of the July PRIDE training, I am now in the process of determining if I will be offering that particular session. I will know in two weeks. I have one couple spot left for the May session which I could offer you, otherwise, I will get back to you over the next couple of weeks about July. I will send you the registration information at that time.At some point you will also need to start a homestudy. I would be happy to provide you names of practitioners if you required this.Hopefully we will have a chance to meet Crystal.All the best,

Sofie, was by far, the most meaningful correspondence I'd received. Why? She was excited! She was excited FOR ME!!! You could hear her excitement, and her passion, and her wanting the best for me! Possibly, I'm reading too much into this however, with most of my day (job) focusing around being "in the moment" with our clients… this was "well played". She said "exciting" and "truly believe" "hopefully we will have a chance to meet" - all positive, enforcing words. So… I was encouraged.

PHEW! 

What a day eh?

In reflecting on my day, as the calls and the emails came in, I thought…Man… it's like God was JUST WAITING for me to give it up to Him. And the MOMENT I did…it's like the floodgate was released and

SWOOSH!

Tonnes and tonnes of positive reinforcement indicating that perhaps, Marc and I are on the right track…PERHAPS.

At the end of all of this, I must admit… I've been broken. 

So, I'm cautious, and still, a little anxious.

But Marc and I spoke, shared some of our insecurities and… most importantly, we prayed together. 

I'm confident, God will lead us on the path to happiness - in whatever shape or form that takes. One day at a time, right?