This is one of those "bad" days

I finally got a response from someone from an adoption process centre... YAY!

As much as that was the part scaring me, and causing me unrest... her response made it worse. Yes, I realize, I am unpleasable it seems.

Her (2nd) response:

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: (MCYS) <@ontario.ca>
Date: Wed, Apr 4, 2012 at 10:54 AM
Subject: Adoption Questions/Inquiries

Ok Crystal.  So keep in mind, the fall Adoption Resource Exchange Conference is scheduled to take

place Sunday, October 14, 2012 at the Metro Toronto Convention Centre, North Building, 255

Front St. West.  This could be an avenue for you to find a child/ren.  Best of luck with your adoption

plans.

Cheers,

Adoption Unit

Ministry of Children & Youth Services

416

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The more I begin to think I am okay, the more I realize...MAYBE I'm not.

The thing is, yes. I am sad. And I've got a "hurt" that I really just want to be fixed. And... I would like a "band aid" to cover this ouch in the meantime before it heals... Am I making sense? Likely not but ...

Going through the "process" of adoption, talking to people, filling out paper stuff, keeping busy with an end in sight - not the exact date but knowing there is something to work towards... that would have been my band aid. But with "mcys" saying Oct 14th... and in a previous email indication this could be lengthy... I'm sitting here dejected. Thinking, this process may not start till October. A very long 6 months from now...

Pros:

6 months will fly by

I need to give God time to heal me and this is His time

it prepares us even more financially

it helps weed out the "weak" from the "strong" or the "fad" from the "serious"

...

Cons:

i have a ouch and I want a fix... NOW!

Yup, the childish one is the one who wants to be a parent...

Awesome.