My Misery does NOT love Company... NOT ONE BIT!

Today was a rough day. It started off rough with a weight on my chest that felt so heavy that I thought I would collapse to my knees. Where it came from... who knows. BUT! The story does not end here!

Today was also a day that seemed "rough" (understatement) for many of my loved ones. One woke up really... "icky" another had a weekend that I would never wish on any of my future children - including a heartbreak that...just isn't ready to heal, and the last, had a burden that... probably quadruply outweighed mine. And throughout a workday that started with me "venting" to them, I learned...

This world was not about me and me alone. 

Today...

I was gently scolded by my God and reminded that 

there is hurt all around me

and the longer I take to heal... the less effective and supportive I can be to many of those hurting; the less effective I can be to the friends I call sisters; the less effective I can be to the co-workers who know the light of Jesus is in me - which recently must've seemed to them, as though it was hidden under a bowl. Not to mention, I have not been a strong, supportive wife - but that's not relevant to today's post.

This afternoon, as I spoke with one of my friends... I spoke about "Jesus Love things" - words of encouragement, support, etc., all the while thinking 

"Crys, are you kidding me?!? how can YOU talk God things?!?! 

Have you seen yourself lately? 

You can't give it up to Him, but want to encourage others to do so... 

you want them to heal... but won't give yourself the same grace...

So... what leg do you have atop credibility today, to mark you worthy to speak on this subject?"

*Hmmm... good point Conscience*

So... 

That's It!! I have decided!

I'm done. 

I'm done feeling sad. 

I'm done "giving up". 

I'm done carrying this burden that was never mine to carry.

I'm done being useless to my friends.

I'm done causing them to feel the need to carry my burdens.

My MISERY DOES NOT LOVE COMPANY!

My misery wants to be alone... my misery is selfish and DOES NOT 

want to share the misery space with others...

So clearly, it's time for mine to go so I can assist these other "misery's" in

finding another place to rest - versus their current locations 

in the hearts of my friends....

Praise the Lord for snapping me out of it!

Praise the Lord for NEVER giving up on me!

Amen and Amen